I've never done anything like this before. I was encouraged to write a blog by several friends and though not usually one to succum to peer pressure, I figured I would. I'd been thinking about doing this for some time and just decided, with the encouragement of friends that I'd finally dive in. I love to write and haven't taken the time to do so for years, literally. I've been so busy with raising a family that the time has cruzed by without me hardly knowing how it has happened. I find myself so busy with the family and constantly going that weeks have gone by without me knowing how it happened. I find that friends don't get called, chores don't get done and projects remain unfinished. Yet my little men are strong and healthy and way too independant and self assured for me to feel I've missed something.
I can't imagine how others seem to get so much done with more kids than I have. I don't know how, and it doesn't really matter. I do what I can, how I can and find it's enough for my husband and children. If I let anyone else down I'm always sad, yet I know I've been there for the most important people in my life. They are the ones who ignore my bad habbits, love me in spite of how I am and sometimes don't realize I'm even in the room, but I know they love me and are dependant on me staying the course. When I feel like there's no point in the struggle then I look into those beautiful eyes and remember why I'm doing this, the course I set is important and the ultimate goal must be reached at all cost and any sacrifice.
I don't know how often I'll get to this, I don't know if it will be something I'll like to do, but writing has always been a release for me and I'm hoping to find that release in this blog. Hopefully, I'll reach some wonderful friends and family along the way and they'll know how much I think of them and love them all as I run this chaotic race.